Donell Jones used to be the gold pot at the end of my rainbow. His voice could serenade the pants off of the queen of England and her prudish ass. But, like I said, "used to".
R and B singers write ballads about a concept that doesn't exist between two human beings. Love is a running joke that came about since the beginning of time. It gave people hope and let them get lost in their own meaning of the four letter word. But just like all of the other famous four letter words, love is synonymous with shit. Shit, being the more easier of the two words to pronounce. Shit, being the more fun one of the words to say. Shit. That's "love".
I think that there are people who are better off in relationships and then there are people who the 'people in relationships' run to when they are crying over their mate. I'd like to think that I would be the person in the relationship, but that just isn't the case. I prefer to be alone. Solitude gives me an edge in life that doesn't come with relationships. While they are nice for a certain time frame, they all seem to run their course and I start to daydream about being by myself all over again. Why is this? Because Donell Jones was my introduction into what it was supposed to be like when you are in "love".
I am currently looking for a good lawyer to sue the pants off of this Chicago crooner. Since I was in high school I would listen to his music and as the perfect painting developed in each of his songs, I would say to myself "Well, fuck me sideways, THIS is what a guy should feel like when he is in love with me". I thought that his songs were the epitome of "love feelings". I even went as far as researching how much it would cost to have him come to my home and sing for me just one song. And FYI: it's impossible to find that information using google.
As of late I no longer listen to Donell Jones the same way. His perception of love is fake and he sells false dreams to anyone who has never experienced it firsthand. People these days are too in love with themselves and worried about what other people think to truly give relationships a chance. This generation is fixated on perfection, their view in their mirror and lies. Most of all, this generation is immature beyond belief. Instead of waiting around for what people finally realize when they are old and pruned, I chose to live a life of solitude. I have my shitty friends to hang out with, my cigarettes that never treat me like a BFI dumpster denizen and my Captain Morgan's that keep my focus nice and foggy.
I'd rather let everyone around me go through the "love" roller coaster ride and end up in therapy or forever searching for the impossible. I have other mindless things that I like to do with my life that don't include someone berating me for enjoying them. Maybe in 50 years my generation will realize what I'm talking about. Or maybe I'm wrong and I'm the one who is missing out on something that I'm blind to see.
As far as Donell Jones? I'm tossing his albums in the trash...
XOXOXO
